US Army PFC Jase Emery, on leave in Germany, sees Ase Ramirez for the first time with a camera to his face. Ase’s wild child ways provide a welcome distraction for Jase. But their weekend of fun ends abruptly when Ase’s conservative family catches them. Through email, Ase and Jase are able to keep the link open. But that too comes to an end.
Jase was never able to live up to his parent’s expectations like his brother was. He didn’t stay and work the family ranch, or marry. He saw the world. His return from serving in the Army changed nothing, he wanted to be free to live his own life. But the death of his father and his mother’s failing health force him to come home, hide his bisexuality, and live a life in the closet as a local Sheriff Deputy so he can take care of his family. This was to be his life… Until Ase returns.
After his family caught Ase and Jase together, Ase worked hard at getting the heat off himself. His occasional thoughts of Jase and their amazing weekend dwindle as life and family take the forefront and fear drives Ase to make huge mistakes.
When Ase and Jase come face to face again, it isn’t easy. Insecurities, and a hurt that have only grown with time make it hard to see the future. Can their friendship blossom into something more? With Ase’s wild side reappearing from the shadows and major trust issues, can he and Jase, with huge obstacles of his own, learn to forgive, move on, and find a peace they both so desperately want… together?
Confessions of a Wild Heart is broken into three sections. The first centers around a young Jase and Ase and their short whirlwind romance that ended in heartbreak.
As tough as the first section was, the second was in a way even harder. Jase was forced back to his family’s ranch. He had tried so hard to strike out on his own. To become his own person and live his life away from all the judgement and shame. He was loyal to his family though, regardless of their opinion of him. Then he ran into Ase… within miles of where he lived. The fact that he hadn’t made a move to contact him was beyond his understanding. I have to admit, even I was confused by that realization. There was a lot more to both of their stories though.
I’m not sure which one of these guys I felt more for. This book was a perfect illustration of both physical and psychological scarring. In my opinion, neither one is acceptable. Ase had the physical scars and Jase had the emotional ones. The mom in me wanted to lash out at all the people who had caused them pain. To help them fight back and to let them know that they weren’t alone or wrong.
Part three… well, I can’t really go into detail about what happens next, but I can say it makes everything that Jase and Ase go through worth it… almost. There’s some closure and more than a little pain, but there’s also hope, which is more than either one of these two had at the beginning of their story.